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masturbation 37
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tell us about
your earliest experience of masturbation...
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I remember when I was
probably about 12 or 13, I was in my room studying and I heard my older
sister making some noises in her room. I had never heard he make these
sounds before so I went into the connecting bathroom and looked into
her room from there. The reason why she was making those noises was because
she was having sex with her boyfriend. Well, actually, she was lying
on her back and he was kissing her between her legs and apparently, she
really enjoyed that very much. It was then that I put my hand down underneath
my panties and decided to explore just what it was that I was born with.
At that time, I didn't have an orgasm, I just massaged myself for quite
a long time and enjoyed my new-found feelings I had never experienced
before.
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when you
were growing up - what did your mother tell you about masturbation? did
you talk about it with your friends?
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Firstly,
my mother told me early on that, "Everyone learns about their body!" I
heard that many times and never really quite knew what to think about
that. Later in life when I was a late teenager, my mother would say, "If
you have to make love, make love to yourself!" I took that to mean
that I should do that to myself until I was married. There was a time
I witnessed my mother "learning" about her body one time early
in the morning. Afterwards, I had gone into the drawer by her bed and
discovered so many different and interesting things that she apparently
used to "learn" about herself. It was then that I thought I
could do so much more to and for myself and that began my experimental
time sexually in my life.
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what do you
think about; who do you fantasize about when you masturbate?
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Well, when
I do make love to myself, I enjoy watching adult movies to copy what
they do and see just how it works on me. When I fantasize, I fantasize
about men and sometimes I actually fantasize about being with other women
as well. My older sister was not really my true sister as she was a stepsister.
One another occasion when I heard those "sounds" again, I went
once more to that connecting bathroom to watch her and her boyfriend.
To my shock and surprise, it was my sister giving kisses to her best
friend and it was her best friend that was making all of those noises.
I guess my sister must have been bi back then but I had no idea as to
what that was. I just knew that she had sex with her boyfriend and then
sex with her best friend too. I fantasize about her having sex with her
friend on many occasions. It looked so kind and sweet and so loving to
see the both of them being so caring and tender with each other.
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how do you
typically set the mood, do you use sex-toys? - describe the scene...props,
setting, soundtrack, etc.
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When I
make love to myself, I must admit, it's for adventure and for the thrill
of being able to try something new. Since I did discover all of those
things that my own mother must have used, I started a collection of things
that I used to make me feel good too. Not only do I have many household
things in that drawer such as candles, a couple different screwdrivers,
small empty bottles of perfume, electric toothbrush, hairbrushes and
perfect-sized shampoo bottles as well. I have a nice assortment of love
toys and tickers that I have purchased these past couple of years. That
has really enhance my own personal self love making beyond belief. I
had a boyfriend who used to use some sort of electrical wire thing he
made and connected to himself while using his stereo. Because I had a
key to his place, I have used this too because I have seen him use this.
Those orgams I've had while using that have been the most intense orgams
I have ever had in my life!
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got any great
masturbation stories to tell?
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With
that same boyfriend I had, he had dared me to make love to myself outside
and I said, "No problem!" Then he said, "In the middle
of the street!" So after getting to courage to meet his challenge
and telling him that if I did he would have to also, I went outside our
front door completely naked and walked down our little path to the street
and went out into the middle of the street. I stood there and began to
massage myself and was out there for about 10 minutes or so before I
finally had an orgasm. As proof to him that I did, he saw that I did
in fact have myself all over my hand. I was happy that this dare was
made at 2:00am or so in the morning as no one was out and no cars came
down the street. He was so turned on by this, that we made love for quite
a while and then fell asleep. He has yet to fulfill his end of the agreement!
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what would/did
you tell your daughter about masturbation...
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I would probably
tell my daughter the same things my mother told me. I do believe those
words were age appropriate and they were great advide as well. I am lucky
that I wasn't my friend who had asked her mother where babies come from
as her mother actually took my friend into the bedroom, disrobed and
she showed my friend completely and fully just where babies did come
from. I could have never done that with my mother. I figured seeing my
mother masturbate in her bed that one early morning was enough for me.
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this conversation
makes me think...
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I
have learned quite a lot from making love to myself over the years. I
am grateful that I was told it was something to do in private and that
it wasn't anything that others needed to know. I am not embarrassed about
it but I am not totally proud to share so many of these things with my
best friends as well. I did make the mistake of sharing some things with
a very good friend of mine and she had wanted to see how I made myself
feel happy and love. After having a few drinks, I was able to be naked
in front of her and show her how I make love to myself. Little did I
know that my friend was actually bi and she didn't waste too much time
make me feel special and loved as well. While it was quite a moving and
loving experience, I do not want to make love to my friend as much as
she wants to make love to me. I will admit, making love with her was
awesome but I don't want it to get to the point where that is all we
are doing when she comes over to visit me or I am visiting her.
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