| My first
bf was aware of my virginity, and put up a very convincing front that
it didn't matter to him. Boy was I ever wrong. I only found out on
one of our last moments together, (when he subtly tried to get me to
lay next to him on his bed while we were making out), that he never
put much value in my decision, not as much as he portrayed anyway.
At this point in time, he had gotten back together with his ex-gf while
we were a thing (I was obvlivious), which means that even while being
with her, he still tried to take my virginity. He was that self-involved.
He showed no respect for me or even her. He's a selfish pig, and what
sucks is that you'd never be able to tell, because he honestly was
one of the sweetest guys I've EVER met. But...his goal all along was
to be as sweet and charming as possible so I WOULD give it to him.
He stupidly thought that sprouts of love would get me to WANT to give
it up, but he was wrong. My second bf was much better. He too was aware
of my virginity, and never once tried to sway me, nor pressure me,
nor subtly encourage me. He's got the church upbringing as I do. He
unfortunately lost his virginity at maybe 13 or 14, but he was pressured
by his older brother, so it wasn't really his choice. We've been separated
for a few months now because of unfortuate circumstances, but should
we find each other again and end up getting married, then I'm happy
to know that he was aware of my virginity even before we started going
out.
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